Wow, what a way to come back again to the blog. A year later in the middle of a pandemic. I can’t tell you how many times I thought to myself, this is the day I’m going to start blogging again! There was actually a point where I even made an entire month’s worth of content and just never posted. I honestly don’t know what to say other than life is just a freakin roller coaster of emotion and shit happens. So….I got a new job…SURPRISE, but no surprise there. I’ve actually landed in a great spot where I feel like I can flourish and grow in my career so that’s exciting. You know what’s not exciting, shelter-in-place. And yes it’s not supposed to be exciting and I am absolutely doing my part to keep myself and others safe, but damn does this take a toll on you.
I should be used to being home all the time. I’ve been working remotely for about 2 years, but add all this negativity, stress, sadness, and anxiety that’s going on in the world right now and it’s just mentally exhausting. I try to stick some sort of routine to help the days go by easier, I hear that helps. Work keeps me busy for the most part, so I’m extremely grateful for that. I bought a ton of plants that probably won’t survive because I’m the worst plant mom ever, but hey I needed some sort of hobby!
In all seriousness, sometimes I feel so hopeless. The only time I actually leave my apartment and go outside is to take my dogs on a walk. I’ll try and go to the grocery store if I need to, but I just get so anxious and end up not going. I have my share of health issues I’ve lived with since I was little so it’s scary to think about being around a bunch of people right now. I was in the elevator the other day in my building and this guy walked in and got so close to me I flinched. Watching the news doesn’t make things better…I’m getting to the point where if I even see any news online, I just keep scrolling. Everyone thinks they know more or know better than each other and it’s just this never ending cycle of shit-fuckery. I know this probably isn’t the best topic to talk about, but I feel like I just needed to get my feelings out somehow.
Anyways, do you have any tips on how to pass the time or any new shows I should bingewatch? Because I’ve already cleaned my whole apartment, cut my brother’s hair, bought plants, and yes even played Animal Crossing for more than 200 hours. I’ve recently started watching Billions and wow I’ve never been so interested in a show where I have no idea what they’re talking about.
I’m not going to promise the next time I’m going to post because my mental state, clearly, is just all over the place at the moment. However, maybe this is what I need! To just come on here and get my feelings out, create semi-interesting stuff you all might like 🙂